Quick hello

Hey B,



I was doing a bit of hiding out today and didn't make time to sit down and write. K and I got up early and rejoined Weight Watchers (what's that, like the 40th time I've joined in 15 years?) I just can't give up, I guess. I keep telling myself it's a waste of money, it's not the program for me, whatever I can to get out of it, but over the years it has continued to call me back and has shown me success every time I let it. So we went, and I feel much better. I ate well today - I made good choices and practiced my positive self-talk as much as I could. I even lay out in the sun for awhile this afternoon and finished my book, allowing myself the hour or so to relax and feel good.

I also ironed about a thousand shirts, did as many loads of laundry and thought a lot. K and I had a conversation about the fight that J and I had last weekend, and she got me crying in the carwash, but it did feel better to talk a little. I wish I could answer the questions she asked me, but every response seems to be "I don't know" as in "I don't know how I feel" or "I don't know what I want."

I just got sidelined there: J came home from work and dinner's ready. We're heading over to S&T's after dinner so I probably won't get back to this tonight. I'll catch up with you in the morning (with responses to your blogs too :)
Love,
A