A Better Person

Oh, Amanda,

Yay! It was great to sit and read your last letter. I just sat down in front of the computer with a glass of wine, having just finished washing dishes and cleaning up the kitchen chaos I created while making cold sesame noodles. (I am on a mission to find the best recipe/create the best recipe by tweaking one that exists. The cooking equivalent to my restaurant mission of being in search of the greatest Caesar salad.) It was an awful, rainy day today so the plan was to come home, get comfy and read--but I guess I felt a little more like nesting. (Part of it is also getting into that creative zone...Anyway.) I swear I am an infinitely better person when I am well rested. Less lazy, less cranky; more productive, more motivated, more patient.

How funny that M is at the point you need to say "door open" when a girlfriend visits. And how wild that C, grown up that she is, is one of the people recommending you buy him condoms. Wow. That's crazy. Where did the time go? I definitely think you have raised on a nonjudgmental kid, Tam, so kudos to you. But I will say also though that his style/look may naturally attract emo girls. He is safe. His look says I won't judge you if you have sh*t going on. You know what I mean? Anyway, I'm sure she is a nice gal, P ;-) And God bless her grandmother for stepping up and raising her.

I'm glad you're enjoying the SHM thing, and even happier to hear that you are feeling supported by J. That's so important to feel like you're both on the same side, both in agreement about its value. Can I take it that things have been okay between you since the crackberry convo? When does that meeting happen when he may get appointed chief? (Again, I love C! How great that she can be so honest with her dad about his involvement/lack of in the family.)(God, I can remember meeting her when she was a teenager, taking her to Starbucks with us. She thought I was pretty. Now I sound like Lloyd Dobler. Or Rudolph.) Keeping doing what you're doing, Amanda, you're doing okay...

Couple more quick notes before I tune in to the Palin Police on msnbc. Great news for W! Children's Hospital called and want to bring him in to talk about a job. A week or so he got a no from them. He had been brought in to interview for a job they were hoping to create but had not gotten a go ahead for, but today they called to say that the manager they were having trouble scheduling to see W resigned, and they want him to take that position. Sounds like a done deal to me, like they're calling him in as a HR formality and to dot their is and cross their ts since it's not the position he interviewed for, but he is being a little cautious. I can understand why he is, but I also wish he'd be more positive...As I'm sure he'd be instructed in The Secret.

I didn't buy or read it but I did hear all about it. Of course I did, Oprah made it famous! I guess I passed because I had gotten into that whole creative visualization thing and have been working with positive reprogramming on and off for a while...(Given that I still live paycheck to paycheck I should probably look into it. Although I do think cv and positive talk were part of my finding and falling in love with W.)

I have a wake tomorrow night (the husband of the office manager at Dr B's passed away; he was 87 and quite ill, but lived a great life to a ripe old age!) which may turn into a reunion of a sort before or after. I'll hear from Dr B's wife, aka Julie McCoy, later tonight to firm up our plans.

I'll check in again later or in the morning. Thanks again for your long letter.

Love you, Barb