First Day as PTA Mom

Hey there,

Sorry I didn't write yesterday. I got up and hit a cleaning spree that lasted until 5:30 last night. My house is immaculate; that should last about a day. :) I'm glad I did, though; Casey came home last night for the weekend a day early and I wouldn't have wanted to subject her to the normal state of her brothers' bathroom. No one should have to see that.

God, I used to hate Open House. I had sympathy pains for you last night. But for the occasional parent who loves you and holds her own child accountable, it was torture. TGIF indeed. Your evening sounds delightful, although I drank a half bottle of wine last night and feel like crap this morning. Ever since last weekend, I haven't had much of a desire to drink, but while I was cooking this pasta dish for dinner last night, it sounded good. Then I guess I just got going on it until I had had 3 glasses and went to bed half crocked.

Which I'm sure didn't help with my erratic sleeping this week. I don't know if it's having the kids back in school and M getting up so early (he's up by 5 and out the door at 6:45) that makes me wake up at 4 - how is that logical? But I do. Three days in a row now, I've woken up at 4am and not been able to go back to sleep. And it's not that I'm not tired, believe me. Maybe next week once the routine is established, I'll calm down. Right now, I'm so worried he's not going to wake up in time if I fall back asleep, I think. I don't know.

J and I did have a brief (one sentence) conversation yesterday about the crackberry and all is better - notice I didn't say ok. We did, however, have a really nice half-hour or so while cooking dinner. We actually had a political discussion about Gov. Palin, one in which we disagreed and were able to talk anyway. Here's the thing: A) We rarely, if ever, talk about anything like that. Our conversations are limited to him, me, his work, my work, the kids. I can't remember the last time we talked about something unrelated to one of those topics. B) We can't disagree on anything (and I mean anything) and continue talking. We don't discuss, debate, argue...nothing. Once it's clear that we aren't in agreement, we stop talking about it. One of us defers to the other and the conversation is over. So the fact that we accomplished both of those things last night was big. I don't expect it to change our world, but it was a nice glimpse of what it might be like if we knew how to get there.

I'm off to do Friday Treats this morning. C's going to come with me, which went over very well with JJ. I love that he's still young enough to want his mom and sister at school. I'll try to write later, but thought you'd appreciate a note during the school day. Love you! A

P.S. I am also going to meet with my friend, P, today to tell her I don't want to do that 5th grade sub job. She called last night and we talked; she's desperate so I told her I'd think about it overnight. I did. I'm still not going to do it. Look at me -what a big girl. I made that decision all by myself :)