Smooth Sailing...For Now

Hi Barb,

Sounds like you made some great memories this weekend - even though I haven't read about your cena Italiano yet! I can't wait to hear! (I'm reading Eat, Pray, Love again and I'm more convinced than ever now that you must read it. Hence, I am sending to you. I am hoping you will love it; if you don't, feel free to lie to me.) Neat picture, too!

Our weekend went relatively smoothly. M started off in a great mood and we had a good day Friday; Saturday we came home for JJ's first football game (they lost, but only by a touchdown!) and M actually voluntarily came with us...that's very unusual. He kind of lost his good mood steam later that day and started whining about having to spend time with his family, but we did a fairly good job of ignoring his sorry butt and having fun anyway. JJ caught three fish - a couple of little guys and a 13 inch trout, of which he was quite proud. Of course we don't eat the fish because no one really likes them and God knows I'm not about to cut and clean anything. So we sent them all back into the lake with little injured lips.

Sunday night we gathered over at S&T's for leftover camping food (T had been hunting all weekend). We grilled up steaks and beer kielbasas, finished off all the potato and macaroni salads and most of the beers...even M came over and joined us for dinner (again, unusual) and was very pleasant. R&K showed up later after having been out to dinner elsewhere - it was nice to catch up with everyone since I had more or less sequestered myself in my house last week and had very little communication with the outside world. I drank too much before I ate though and ended up a little more sloshed than I had hoped for - but not in a way that I woke up this morning with the address for an AA meeting clenched in my hand. I just have to remember that I have to eat sometime between 9 and 6 if I'm going to drink at 6:05.

Today I actually got up and went to the gym (I had to think to remember where it was) but didn't do jack the rest of the day. I have to say though, the workout went a long way as far as feeling good goes. I can't wait to go to my eval tomorrow and feel like something is going to change. If I have another week like last week, I'm not going to make it very long.

As it is, today was exhausting and, like I said, I hardly did a thing. By the time JJ's homework and the laundry were done, I was done too. The highlight of my day, though? I got my paperwork back for court on Thursday and I just found out that K is going to owe me over TWICE what he's been paying me since April in child support. Now, I'm not in this for the raping and pillaging, but it did feel pretty good to know that he is going to be held accountable for something in all of this. Since he won't take any responsibility for being a real father, this is at least something. Boy, he's going to have a meltdown when he sees those numbers though. Sort of puts a smile on my face, in a mean and horrible and unashamedly satisfying kind of way.

More tomorrow,
Love,
A