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Hey, A,

I suppose you could say it's a funk...no plans, no money on the eve of a tax refund (literally; I looked it up), and a little bored. Also, W and I are fighting/at an impasse/on a different page so even though I have done nothing willingly a thousand times before and loved every minute, this weekend it feels like it's his fault that I'm doing nothing. No. Worse. It feels like I have allowed myself to become a lady in waiting and I. Hate. That. It is antithetical to who I am. God forbid I simply see this as one of our off weekends. No, I've got a touch of your Mountains out of Molehills disease. Ridiculous.

Good news is I have things to look forward to--like extra money and plans to spend it. I have been making plans for February and April vacations. February vacation I will spend a couple days in Boston, with or without W, treating myself to a couple of nights at the Sheraton in the Back Bay. Then, I think I'm going to visit J in San Diego over April vacation. Our district has vacation a week later than everyone else in the world, which explains my being able to get airfare for $278. I haven't bought the ticket yet, but if it's still available once my tax refund is in the bank, I think I'll go for it. I haven't seen J for as long as I haven't seen you. In fact I think I visited her in April the same year I saw you over the summer. So, that's all good. It's just this weekend that's begging to be over.

I'm so glad you liked the noodles (I made them for myself again yesterday and they do rock, I must admit) and that you're trying the dal today. Of course now I'm wondering if I included a note about how I modify the recipe with a can of diced tomatoes a couple hours from the end. Either way, if you like curry, the warmth of those spices and the comfort of hot soup, I think you'll like it. But, of course, I will be waiting anxiously for your report. (Honestly, I wonder if part of what is going on with me is that authentic, certifiable PMS that comes the week after one's period. Blues, paranoia, the whole nine.)

Hope you enjoyed the movie. Talk to you soon.

xo,
B