Seeking A Reason

Hey,

I meant to write earlier today, but ended up napping with J after his surgery, then getting stuff done around the house before basketball etc. I had to cancel the movies but that ended up being a good thing; J was called to a special commissioner's meeting tonight and I had to drive him there. He had no idea why they wanted to meet with him, but he was really nervous about it. Turns out, his gut was right.

Not only will he not be appointed the new Chief of the department, he didn't even make it past the first cut of the application process. Apparently, the top five candidates have more education on paper than he does. Evidently, 25 years of experience and training and actually being the f***ing chief of the f***ing department mean nothing.

I'm just stunned, and my heart is hurting for him; I know, I should be so grateful that he isn't being fired, that he has a job at all. I know there are so many people in much less fortunate positions than he is (W included) but right now, forgive me, it's hard to be grateful. Right now, I can't believe the complete absurdity of what just happened.

A bunch of little men with way too much power and no f***ing clue what to do with it. We just have to believe that everything happens for a reason.

Everything happens for a reason.

Just wish we knew what it was.

More tomorrow,
Love,A

PS - the surgery went well :-)

PPS - f***ing F!