quick note

Hey,

Sorry to hear your day wasn't stellar. I just wanted to say hello before JJ gets home; I ended up reading a bit this morning, then took myself to the massage place for a one-hour stress reliever. It was helpful; I do feel physically better. After a trip to the grocery store, I headed back home, ate some lunch, and watched a little tv. Now it's time for my second shift and I realized I hadn't written here.

Nutshell:

Subbing
I have all my materials in and they should be processed within the week. I plan on only working maybe two days a week.

Restaurant reviews with K
Nothing yet. Haven't even talked about it lately. I'm a little preoccupied, which sucks for everyone in my life.

Tonight I am dropping JJ off at his basketball coach's house (across the street) for dinner and practice. I am going to the support group at 6:30, the one the school and my friends who have lived the teenage nightmare both suggested. I keep thinking it's going to be a magic pill, that I will leave with some secret handshake into the Club of Parents with Unruly Teens. I have made a long list of questions that plague me every day, and I know I'm setting myself up for failure believing that I will come home tonight with all the answers. Still, it has to be a place to start. The more I read this book, Beautiful Boy, the more I think M is on drugs; in fact, at this point, I can't even pretend that he's not. The behavioral symptoms are just all there and all clear. I am trying not to scare myself, reading my life into this father's story, but I'm also trying to dig myself out of denial. Hopefully, listening to some parents who have been, or are, where I am will be of some help or comfort.

Gotta run - sorry for the short post (God forbid I should write less than a novel!) and i hope you enjoy your evening. What are you reading now?

Love you,
A