I feel right today. Not tired, not like I'm drugged or walking under water, not stressed, not disgusted, not counting hours till vacation or the next weekend or praying for a freak, late season Nor'easter and snow day. Just right. Like I had the right amount of time off from work, enough fun and enough sleep, and good dose of endorphins set free to soothe me. It occurred to me, as I did this self-survey of a sort, that I haven't felt like this in a while. Maybe it's about balance. Maybe this weekend I struck the right balance when I included girlfriend and friend in my profile to complement teacher, best aunt in the world, independent woman who's okay being alone. God knows how long it'll last, but today it feels good.
I enjoyed chatting with you earlier and getting up-to-date on things with M. I commend your composure. Honestly, I think you are doing remarkably well. I know that you are past blaming yourself; I think it would be a good time, therefore, to congratulate yourself for holding it together so well. Really. Know that every day I hope this nightmare finds its proper resolution soon, and that you'll trust in the universe to figure out what exactly that is.
Sending my love,
Barb
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