Moments We'd Like To Not Have To Live

Hi, Barb.

Thanks for the note tonight. C went with me to my support group and it was very helpful. I'm so glad I went tonight and learned some valuable info for tomorrow. We got home about an hour ago, ate some dinner then visited with the boys...now I can no longer avoid going to bed, which is the equivalent of facing reality.

Had a very good day today. Ran errands with my kids, finished up some paperwork, took a nap, ate well, worked out...I guess I couldn't have asked for much more. I'm all ready to go for tomorrow morning (mentally, physically) and just anxious for it to be over. I know I will have to remain emotionally composed so I'm enjoying a glass of wine now in the hopes that I will sleep well. There is the significant possibility that M will be ordered to return home with us right after the hearing, so we need to have a plan in place for that. The likelihood of him complying with the court order is pretty low, though, so we may spend the better part of the day filing our contempt of court petition. Already.

I'm just not looking forward to any of it. I have a 1:30 appointment to get my hair cut and part of me can't wait for the relaxation time, part of me wishes I hadn't booked that on this particular day. I may cancel, who knows. Right now, my hair is annoying me so much I'd be willing to get it cut tonight.

Going to run through my paperwork one more time to make sure that I've got everything. I'm sure I do, twice, three times over, but I'm a little OCD about this whole thing. Then I'm off to bed...perhaps I should take a half an Ambien to make sure???

I will talk to you tomorrow, one way or the other, here or on the phone.
Thanks for all the positive energy...love you,
A