Writing, NOT Working

Good morning...

I hate "email" - as in, computer-written communication. Maybe I'm a little sensitive this morning, but I feel the need to apologize after reading your post. I don't mean to go days without responding, I'm sure you know that. I often lack the simultaneous occurence of inspiration and time to write. Like yesterday, we had planned to work in the yard all afternoon, but I was inspired to read and write instead. So I chose to honor that, and stay inside. J wasn't mad, really, but I know I left him with all the work to do for the majority of the day. Sometimes, I'll get inspired when JJ's about to walk in the door, or I have all the time in the world first thing in the morning, but sit here and stare at the keyboard without a single intelligent thought in my head.

You're right, writing shouldn't be a chore. Kim tells me the same thing. I still end up putting it low on my list though, and even apologizing for spending time doing it, especially if its taking time away from my family. I know that's all effed up - I'm working on finding the right balance.

So I'm sorry I've slowed down and that you write without feedback many days. I'll try to get better!!

I volunteered at school this morning and went to WW - only lost 1.8 lbs, which sucks, but considering the amount of wine I consumed right at the end of the week, I guess it makes sense. K and I are off now to do some shopping for (me) Christmas and (her) Christmas parties (they go to a ton). Thought we'd hit TJ's and World Market too, since we'll be up there. I haven't seen her much lately so it will be nice to get caught up. Ever since she quit drinking and became freaky about her exercise routine, we don't seem to spend as much time together. I'm not knocking her - I'm jealous, really.

The rest of this week I hope to work a little - maybe get a sub job a couple of day, then Friday my folks arrive for the first phase of their holiday visit. They will actually only be here for a day, then they leave for Hawaii on Saturday. They will return the following Saturday and stay for the Thanksgiving week. I'm looking forward to seeing them. I got my control-freak wish, too. I really wanted to do Thanksgiving here, just because I hate the tension convention that goes on down at CC's house...and lo and behold, she called to ask it we could do just that. I know it's because of the money, but she said it was because my house is nicer, cleaner, and better decorated. What. Ever.

So I'm out of here now...feeling a little better about the thing last night with M. I did have my breakdown, around 9pm, completely out of the blue when I started to write about it. I didn't think I was emotional about it, but guess I was wrong. Poor J, dealing with my sad blubbering self. :-)

I hope Monday is going well for you...two days on, one off, two days on...weekend...yahoo!

Love you
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