Sometimes Even New Pillows Can't Make It All Better

Hey, you.

Hope you're feeling a little less ADD today. I totally know the mood - it's my status quo.

My dinner plans went awry early this morning when JJ called from school for his weekly - sometimes twice weekly - I didn't do my homework call. (His teacher makes them call home when they don't turn in their homework. Clever idea, only it doesn't appear to be working on my kid.) This resulted in his being grounded for a few days, so I had to change the plan for tonight since it would have included C&T coming over and much friendly playtime. Instead, we went over to K&R's, where T&S showed up, after dinner, sans kids. We knocked out the experiment in less than an hour, then he came home and did all the analysis, graphs, etc. He did a great job on the whole thing, except that the crowd was pretty rough and wouldn't follow the rules (like being quiet during the music, that sort of thing). By "crowd" I mean T, specifically, which would be my segue into I'm really irritated with him lately, if, that is, I wanted to rant about his unbearably negative view of the world and everything in it. Which, right now, I don't. That's all I really wanted to vent.

I did finish the living room today, as well as fit in a trip to Marshalls and Target. After debating the virtues of new sheets, pillows, a coffee pot and a cookware set, I opted for the cookware and a Costco version of the new pillows. Cheaper than the ones at Marshalls, but still about three times fluffier than the ones that were on my bed this morning. I also got some cute magnetic fridge frames (because I am a suburban housewife) in the dollar aisle ( I [heart] the dollar aisle) at Target. And, with my gift card, I treated myself to 12 new picture frames with which I plan to completely revamp my photo wall in the hallway.

But not tomorrow...since I will be spending the day with my neurotic friend KB, returning mall stuff from Christmas and lounging over lunch before she starts her new job on Monday. It's always a good day with her - nothing beats a crazy friend to make a person feel normal. As for now, I've just taken a couple of Tylenol PMs to make sure I sleep through the night, which hasn't been happening at all lately, and I'm freakin' exhausted. A friend was asking me the other day when this started, when I couldn't sleep well, or sleep through the night, and why. I shook my head and said I had no idea why, it started like a year ago and I just can't seem to get it back to normal. Later, driving home, it occured to me - as if it were some great deduction - that it's been about a year since the whole thing was going on with M....duh. Isn't our subconscious something else? Just when you think you've got it all handled, it makes sure you're not handling it somewhere else totally sideways.

So maybe you can tell from my tone that I'm kind of in a funk....sorry about that. It is much of the reason I haven't written lately...I'm sure this, too, is related to M and his surprise Christmas visit, the non-gift giving, the emptiness, the start of the new year and his still not being home. Plus, we had another police officer murdered last week (that's 6 dead now, in two months) and his funeral was today, which left me all weepy and sad and aching with the question: What is wrong with people???

Ahh..and on that happy little note, I'm starting to nod off here. Since JJ is grounded, I think I'll make him go to Pier One with me after school...heard they have a great star on sale there. Such a mean Mom!

Love you...even if I sound like a hater,
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