Hey, Barb.

Sorry I didn't write over the weekend so that you might have something to read this morning before returning to school.  How was Boston? I hope you and W had a great time and that you were able to get your mind off other things, if only for awhile.  Did you get my message Friday? My heart was breaking for you and your family.

We had a weird weekend.  We started Thursday evening with K&R&TN coming over for drinks after dinner, which went until after 10.  Friday S&T came over after hockey and stayed until late again, drinking, of course.  Saturday night J and I had to go to that godawful (is that one word?) FD dinner, which was worse than ever.  We were home by 8:45; as we drove past S&T's we noticed they were still up, so we grabbed a bottle of wine and headed over there. On the walk over, we ran into another couple, S&J, from down the street, so we invited them along.  The six of us sat around until almost midnight - you guessed it - drinking.  It was actually very fun as we don't see this other couple very often and we all really like them.  Sunday, we did Superbowl over at Kim & Josh's but I conked out early and left before the 3rd quarter was over. My sleep is not improving at all, and all that alcohol wasn't helping one bit. I didn't even drink Sunday and I still couldn't sleep last night.  You'd think my body would just pass out from exhaustion at some point.

I'm sure part of the reason I'm not sleeping, and why I'm 50+ lbs overweight, and why I've withdrawn from everyone around me lately, is that things have become pretty miserable between J and me.  I'm working on my daily affirmations and positive energy, and keeping up with my magic potion and counseling. I keep trying to act like everything's ok and that we're just going through a rough patch, just trying to be a good Mom and keep my shit together.  I'm not doing such a great job, though.

Sorry to dump on you.

I'm battling with JJ over missing work AGAIN tonight and I'm - surprise! - tired.  I hope to hear a bit of good news from you about D and your uncle soon; call whenever you can/want.

Love you,
A