Still Not Right...

Hey, Barb.

I had all good intentions of writing tonight, but I've been fighting a sinus headache that won't go away and I'm ready for bed.  J, JJ and I went out for ice cream after dinner and just got home; I had a lot more motivation before we left.  Tomorrow my workout partner, A, is picking me up at 5:20 (we ditched the gym today, so I totally have to go tomorrow. Headache or no.)

My weekend was good.  Thursday night/Friday morning was fun with the girls down the street and I'm really glad I watched it live.  They aren't very close friends of mine, though, so I was a little out of my element,  but not in a bad way.  I just would love to have shared that experience with someone to whom I felt truly connected, whether it had been you, or KN, or my brother.  At 2am, all my old HS friends were up and on FB, chatting back and forth about what we were all up to - and the fact that we were all up - what we were cooking for breakfast, sharing memories...it was awesome.  Funny, I didn't cry during the wedding, I think because we were all narrating it and laughing and a little late night punchy.  But the next day, when I watched it another eight times in reruns, I cried every time.

I don't know what we did the rest of the weekend really. Ran a bunch of errands, had the As over for dinner, then Sunday it was gorgeous so we worked in the yard a little.  My allergies started to kick up so I took the boys to see Fast Five (because they wanted to see it, right?!) which was thoroughly mindless and enjoyable.

I'm not in a funk, really, but still not myself as of late.  I don't know if it's the weather (we went from the kids in the sprinkler yesterday to closing up all the house windows and wearing my parka today) or what, but my spirits aren't maintaining their height of last week.  I'm stressing about this stupid 4th of July party that isn't my party at all and has nothing to do with me, but somehow became mine because my dad refuses to be an ass to my cousin. He'd much rather be an ass to me.  So I graciously agreed to help but I really don't want to.  I also signed up (last summer) to chair the committee for the end-of-the-year field day at JJ's school (Bobcat Palooza!) - it's probably not as much work as I think but it's still something else on my plate.  Anyway, it's just all got me not sleeping and thinking and worrying too much.  J and I seem to be getting along fairly well these days but I feel like a volcano - I'm struggling with so many issues and we talk about NONE of them.  We have an appt with MC this week but I just can't see how I'm ever going to get all this resolved when it feels so overwhelming.

So that's my story...I would love to have caught up with you over the weekend but it seemed like I was always surrounded by people.  J asked me what I wanted for mother's day and I told him I wanted to go spend the night in Seattle and go to a play.  By myself.  He didn't respond, so I'm not sure if he thought I was serious.  I was.  I think I'll just plan it myself and go.

So that's my attempt at catching you up - can't wait to read and hear how things are with you.  I still haven't heard about Easter, or your Royal Wedding party.  I have an appt to get my car serviced on Wed at 3:00 so I'll be sitting around doing nothing for a couple of hours if you'll be around at that time?

I hope you're well...
Love you,
A