So Far, So Good

Hey,

Well, my good intentions of writing this morning were vetoed by missed episodes of Justified on-demand. Good looking men on mindless tv show = exactly what my brain needs. Soooo...it's now 11:00 and of course, I'm exhausted again.

Today was a good day.  All things considered, having M back in the house is going well. He isn't fully settled in, which is probably annoying him; he doesn't have most of his stuff from the old house over here yet, and we haven't created a bedroom for him here yet.  He's still camping out in C's room, living out of a suitcase and cardboard boxes.  We need to sit down and figure out what we're going to do as far as that goes, so that he can start to make his own space here.

I am learning to let go of things and to not hover over him (of JJ, for that matter), trying to be the perfect mother.  I am learning to stay in bed while they get themselves up and ready for school, and today I even said "no" when JJ called for the umpteenth time this year to ask me to bring his PE clothes down.

Tonight, M was in a choir concert, so JJ and I went to see it. It was actually very good, and I found out that he's going to be in Chamber Choir next year.  That's the last thing I would have expected from him, but he seems to enjoy it.  It kind of fits in with his new friends; his girlfriend, E, was a self-proclaimed major band geek. We ended up eating dinner after 9, which means I won't sleep well, even without the wine I contemplated having.

Other than that, everything is kind of getting back to normal around here. I am having lunch with KB tomorrow and have  a couple of coffee dates this week.  I'm thinking I might call Bro J, since he was so nice at the funeral and all. Did I tell you about the phone call, apologizing for falling off the face of the earth? Where he told me he knew he'd dumped a load of s**t on me, then disappeared?  He was genuinely sorry and wanted to "make it right", but at the time, I kinda had other stuff on my mind, so I haven't actually talked to him at length.  Maybe we'll get together this week. 

I find that I'm coping much better with all of this than I might have expected from myself a year ago.  I think being in counseling, the new magic potions, and generally just being in a better place have all been put to the test, so to speak.  It validates for me the time and effort I've put into all of that, and hopefully will serve to remind me of how one really can get healthier, if one works at it.

I hope your week is going well and that you've got something fun planned for the weekend. As for now, in my new Let Go, Let God / One Day At A Time mentality, my plans beyond breakfast tomorrow only include scheduled baseball games, so I'm hoping for a fun weekend, too.

Love you!
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